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| Yay, I went to FL! Woot! As you can see by my display picture I have a tattoo! Another woot! I had the best time. We did everything, went to the beach, went to the gay club, awesome! I wish I was back there, I hate it here. It's so boring and cold and blah. I'm over Canada, take me to FL! Anyway I just wanted to post something because I never post anymore. Ta! | | |
| It snowed a lot yesterday. I am unhappy. I dislike snow, lol. I wish it would melt but the news says it won't for a while so I must deal with a monochromatic colour scheme for a while. Great.
Last night I had the most fun I've had in a while. Ephy and I went over to Laura's to hang out. We ate so much food! It was awesome! Screw overdosing on drugs, we'll overdose on food! By the end of the night we were in such a food stupor we could barely move. Except we kept eating the cookies. Those god damn cookies! lol. Then we made Laura eat another piece of cookie dough, she looked like she was going to hurl! Anyway...
Yes, we are lame, we acknowledge such things. I'm glad I got out of the house for once though. I finished all of my homework on Friday so I was feeling quite restless. It seems that most of the time when I finally can get out of the house everyone else just blows me off so for that not to happen was good. Yay for hanging out and being retarded!
Also, I am tres excited. In precisely 33 days I shall be in FL! YAY!!!!! I get to see Sam and Matt and then hopefully visit Southbeach! Woot! It shall be the highlight of my year!
Anyway, I think I must go now. I shall finish checking emails and what not!
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| So work was kind of really shitty today. I screwed
up one of the tills. Somehow I managed to jam the receipt and then the
whole machine stopped working, yay for me! I swear to God I'm going to
get fired. With me forgetting shifts and screwing up tills, it's bound
to happen. Anyway, I've been in a very blah mood lately. I haven't been
able to sleep or anything.
Anyway, I don't really feel like talking about
what I was going to talk about so I shall leave now and start monsieur
homework.
This has been some more rantings of... THE NON-SENSICAL!!!!
Ta!
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| Sorry about my last blog. It doesn't mean anything, really. I'll get
over things on my own. I couldn't go to a psych ward anyway seeing as
how they would probably try and stick me with needles and to anyone who
knows me, I'm not okay with that. I just wanted to apologize, even
though no one reads this anyway... lol.
Well, I am procrastinating at doing my homework, which is a bad thing.
I just don't seem to be able to bring myself to do it. All I want is
for this semester to be over... But I am semi proud of myself. My Lit.
teacher handed back our essays and I got an 82% which I definitely
wasn't expecting. I thought it would be a barely passing grade, so to
me, WOOT! lol.
Also, I miss Sam. I've been thinking about her a lot lately. Not that I
don't usually, but when I'm supposed to be concentrating on other
things I've been neglecting that and thinking about her. I'm really
worried about our relationship. I don't know when we're going to be
able to be together and I'm really worried that March will be the last
time I see her. Not just because she's leaving to go to South Africa
for three months, but because I'm not sure how long either of us is
going to be able to stand not being together after so long.
I'm sure that if it was just a two hour difference it wouldn't be this
difficult but it's not just two hours. I really don't want her out of
my life. She's one of my best friends in the whole world. She's
probably one of the only people that really know me. It's just
difficult to really know for sure if everything's going to work out.
She's already decided to go to college there, which will be two years,
and I have to be in school next year, so who knows when we'll actually
get to be together full time. And for that matter, when we do finally
get to be together (if or when that happens) who knows if it will
actually work out?
I mean, we've never lived together full time obviously, the only thing
we know is barely seeing each other. Lately it's just been really hard
to know what's going to happen. I really don't want to lose her.
Everybody has such a negative view of our relationship or just
highschool relationships in general.
Anyway, I should get back to my homework. It's the last leg of the journey and then WE'RE FREE!!!!
Ta
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| I am worried about myself. I am not quite sure what to do. I've left my
homework slide a bit and now it has caught up with me and I don't think
I can get it all done. I only get four hours of sleep every night
because I am up so late doing the homework and I think I am slowly
losing my mind. And I really do think that. I can't stop repeating
things (which no one will understand) and I have been getting frequent
panic attacks triggered by the smallest of things.
I honestly think that by the end of the semester, or perhaps year, I
shall be in the psych ward. I wish I could go to a councellor but I
just don't have any time. Anyway I am done.
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